I just want to move forward in life, it’s all I’ve ever wanted to do but so many things try to push me back.
This year has been a true test of my stamina and I wavered at the worst possible time. I became severely ill and needed the person I loved most on this bitch of a planet to help pull me through. He didn’t. I should have known he’d be lining up the next one as I was damaged goods.
So I battled through myself and with the long distance support of my family I’m so much better and still fighting strong.
I won’t be a choice he has to make. It shouldn’t be a hard one; if roles were reversed it wouldn’t be for me. But that has always been our difference, my love for him was limitless but he always had limits in his.
So there you go, she wins because I’m sick of this game. I know I’m not second best; I am the best mother fucker!
No one will do for him what I have or love him as much as I did and she certainly never will.
I want to find somebody that will wake me up in the middle of the night to lay on the ground and watch the stars sparkle; someone that will give me as much as I give them.
He will never prove himself because he can’t.
You’ve reached the voicemail of a scumbag…. I’m sorry I’m not here to take your call but please leave a message and I’ll get back to you…. LIAR.
Not Feeling So Great About Myself Today.